I don't watch tv much but from past 4 days i have been glued to tv to know what has been happening in Mumbai,i still can't believe that anyone can enter my country with loads of guns and grenades and attack my countrymen,is the security so bad!!!But its happened and let us make sure it doesn't happen.
On wednesday night around 11 in the night terrorists just drove in the roads of Mumbai firing their guns at people and then they enter Taj ,Oberoi,Narimaan house and hold captives and kill many people inside.Some policemen tried their best to fight the terrorists but ashamed to say that terrorists were well equipped than our policemen and due to such incapable equpments many of the able policemen had to sacrifice their own lives.In India NSG(National Security Guards) are all at one city,i still wonder the reasoning behind that,is it to save accomodation and training costs?if so it is at the cost of many innocent Indian lives.In India everything right from declaring birth of a baby to cremate a body needs permission or authorisation from the government and so orders were needed from some politician for the NSG to be drafted to work at Mumbai..Man!!!Give me a break why the hell should NSG wait for orders for some politician who wouldn't even know what NSG is meant for.Yes its midnight and the minister is sleeping and it takes time for the order to be issued and finally when such an order is made there is delay in getting transport for these guys.Fine all said and done they reach there and the hotels don't even have the construction plan,yes that is quite obvious in India,construction plan is needed only to get approval to construct a building and all the official does is take money based on the amount of violation on the plan and construction is done,so there is no concrete construction plan.So now with no clue as to what is in store for them inside and they can't even strategically plan their attack nor can they speculate the movements of terrorists and they enter to save people.The operations are being carried out.
Just spare a thought for the people who are inside stuck and for the families of those who are stuck in there,they would feel so helpless and people inside aren't sure whether they would come out alive or not.Then come the politicians..why on earth do they want to come to the scene of terror as Harsha Bhogle rightly asked "How many terrorists would a politicain kill if he comes there?Is he of any help or just a nuisance out there?"I think the second option suits the action.I hear so many people talking about movements and strikes and stuff but is anything being done about it.People forget about it after a week,in India i see more people in the category of "Baaton ka raja kaamon ka koja".Come on people and media just stop talking,do if u can or just stop talking.All should understand that its the people in power who can do something and not the normal man so make sure you put the right ppl there but if you feel there is no worthy person to be there take an intiative or identify an able person and try to get him into power.
its very easy to talk and point fingers but its difficult to put it into action.
From all this my personal experience is i am hurt and very sad,i can't stop crying looking at the scenes on tv and my blood boils but i am helpless,i can't do a thing and that hurts.All i can do is hope that people who are suppossed to do something about this will work and do something.
As a normal man i would prefer not be afraid of terrorism and be scared to go out or something,the motive of terrorists is to scare the normal man so don't let their motive succeed.NDTV made a big epsiode saying BigB has written a blog where he has written that he had kept a gun below his pillow and felt insecure,i don't feel anything right about it.
I hate the name gievn to them,we should never be terrified by their actions but we should make sure they get terrified for what they have done.
A word for terrorists:I heard a conversation of an involved terrorist with one of the journalists and i donno if its genuine or not,in it the terrorist was saying that muslims are being ill treated in India but i don't know how much educated these people are,i would just like to mention that India has progressed not only because of Hindus but cos of Indians and our ex President Abdul Kalam is a muslim,we have nearly 5 muslims in Indian cricket team,our highest paid and popular actor is a muslim SRK and we have top entraupauners who are muslims Azim Premiji.So i donno who have mind fucked these kids who are just 18 -22 years.And these people talk about being brave,yes i agree they don't care about their lives and attack but if they were really brave they wouldn't have attacked innocent people,they would have declared a war and fought.
Hey cowards my middle finger to you.
Conclusion:I salute to people who have sacrificed their lives to save the people and my heart feels for people who lost their near and dear ones.
I don't want any martyrs for my conutry,i want my country to be safe.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Journey called Life.
I know that the title sounds too heavy but all i want to write about now is some aspects of my life which has constantly changed.
By reading most of my posts you would have by now realized that am a narcissist and should tell you that a proud one as well.
Let me just trace back my life right from my school days and try to figure out the confidence quotient of mine.
Till my class 8th i have no clue how i was studying,all i knew was my dad used to ask me questions..every question and every subject and i used to answer,never did i study or read on my own,i still wonder how i could answer..was i so attentive in class??I have no clue but this is how i was till 8th so i didn't even know what confidence actually was back then.
In my 9th standard is when i started to study on my own and believe me it was one of the worst nightmares of my life.During the study holidays i used to study from 6 in the morning to 12 in the night without any break or anything and that is easily the hardest i have worked and that resulted in my worst performance ever,i landed in higher 60's somewhere in 68% i guess but before that consistently i was in higher 80's,pretty close to 90..So my confidence was dented very badly and the same year i was about to give my 10th exams!!!What did i do???did i work harder!!No all i did was relax and took studies more lightly and i did do well.got my confidence and good marks as well i scored 91.52%,one of the highest of my performances till then .
I joined college and whole of 1 puc all i did was come back from college just have a glance of what was done on the day and studies became simple and easy.
Second puc i joined tuitions(one of the best in Bangalore) and the way coaching was being done and the intensity of the routine broke my confidence and i doubted myself about doing well in exams but this didn't last long,i had college from 10 - 3:30 and tuitions from 5:30 to 9:15 so i had no time to study but that is when i became nocturnal and used to study till 2 in the night.I did get good marks and did well in cet as well though i couldn't get within 1000 which haunts me forever.
Next when i came to engg,i was confident and at the same time hard and smart working but my results never show that,i have been an average student according to marks in BE but i always felt i was much better than that but never did the marks dampen my confidence but in fact it pushed me to work harder.
I joined work and attended training for about 15 days,i swear i understood nothing other than 3 data types in perl and theory of oracle and everything else was much beyond me but i learnt html and css to good extent but little did i knew then that i would be working in the Ui team,i am very grateful for getting opportunity in that field.For about 4 months did some internal projects and through that i learnt a bit and then our academic project had to be completed in 10 days and worked real hard and then is when i got good knowledge about db,emb perl and javascript,i felt i wasn't so bad in my technical skills. Once college got over and got into full time work,i was fed up and lost confidence since i didn't have any worthwhile work for nearly 5 months,i got restless and had lost confidence cos didn't farewell in evaluation test so thought of qutting but that is when my team lead explained about the industry and told that we can't expect work always in an IT industry,i stuck there and for the next 5 months from then got good amount of work,but next six months is when i shaped my career to where i am now,i had to work on a php project,so learnt basics of php and did that and then some good enhancements were handed over to me and then building couple of decent websites,i had to toil and work real hard to get the concepts and implement them as well.It helped to grow better.So confidence was back
Then i joined my current company,i loved the atmosphere and the kind of work i would be into but at the same time had the pressure to perform cos the 3 other developers were just too brilliant and i always consider myself an average guy and i think that is what pushes me to work hard and do good.I have been part of about 3 releases now and i should say i am pretty happy and confident about myself,i never knew that i could be so good technically and i am loving the job,i like the atmosphere here and the freedom,the releases are very aggressive but i still don't see any time constraint for myself,in fact i am loving my work so much that i have always been in front of my laptop working if not in front of my lappy my mind is thinking about solving an issue or something,
Got no clue again as to why i wrote this post..
By reading most of my posts you would have by now realized that am a narcissist and should tell you that a proud one as well.
Let me just trace back my life right from my school days and try to figure out the confidence quotient of mine.
Till my class 8th i have no clue how i was studying,all i knew was my dad used to ask me questions..every question and every subject and i used to answer,never did i study or read on my own,i still wonder how i could answer..was i so attentive in class??I have no clue but this is how i was till 8th so i didn't even know what confidence actually was back then.
In my 9th standard is when i started to study on my own and believe me it was one of the worst nightmares of my life.During the study holidays i used to study from 6 in the morning to 12 in the night without any break or anything and that is easily the hardest i have worked and that resulted in my worst performance ever,i landed in higher 60's somewhere in 68% i guess but before that consistently i was in higher 80's,pretty close to 90..So my confidence was dented very badly and the same year i was about to give my 10th exams!!!What did i do???did i work harder!!No all i did was relax and took studies more lightly and i did do well.got my confidence and good marks as well i scored 91.52%,one of the highest of my performances till then .
I joined college and whole of 1 puc all i did was come back from college just have a glance of what was done on the day and studies became simple and easy.
Second puc i joined tuitions(one of the best in Bangalore) and the way coaching was being done and the intensity of the routine broke my confidence and i doubted myself about doing well in exams but this didn't last long,i had college from 10 - 3:30 and tuitions from 5:30 to 9:15 so i had no time to study but that is when i became nocturnal and used to study till 2 in the night.I did get good marks and did well in cet as well though i couldn't get within 1000 which haunts me forever.
Next when i came to engg,i was confident and at the same time hard and smart working but my results never show that,i have been an average student according to marks in BE but i always felt i was much better than that but never did the marks dampen my confidence but in fact it pushed me to work harder.
I joined work and attended training for about 15 days,i swear i understood nothing other than 3 data types in perl and theory of oracle and everything else was much beyond me but i learnt html and css to good extent but little did i knew then that i would be working in the Ui team,i am very grateful for getting opportunity in that field.For about 4 months did some internal projects and through that i learnt a bit and then our academic project had to be completed in 10 days and worked real hard and then is when i got good knowledge about db,emb perl and javascript,i felt i wasn't so bad in my technical skills. Once college got over and got into full time work,i was fed up and lost confidence since i didn't have any worthwhile work for nearly 5 months,i got restless and had lost confidence cos didn't farewell in evaluation test so thought of qutting but that is when my team lead explained about the industry and told that we can't expect work always in an IT industry,i stuck there and for the next 5 months from then got good amount of work,but next six months is when i shaped my career to where i am now,i had to work on a php project,so learnt basics of php and did that and then some good enhancements were handed over to me and then building couple of decent websites,i had to toil and work real hard to get the concepts and implement them as well.It helped to grow better.So confidence was back
Then i joined my current company,i loved the atmosphere and the kind of work i would be into but at the same time had the pressure to perform cos the 3 other developers were just too brilliant and i always consider myself an average guy and i think that is what pushes me to work hard and do good.I have been part of about 3 releases now and i should say i am pretty happy and confident about myself,i never knew that i could be so good technically and i am loving the job,i like the atmosphere here and the freedom,the releases are very aggressive but i still don't see any time constraint for myself,in fact i am loving my work so much that i have always been in front of my laptop working if not in front of my lappy my mind is thinking about solving an issue or something,
Got no clue again as to why i wrote this post..
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