Another year passed by...

A good saturday..getting up late cos i slept at five in the morning..getting up to a call from a friend telling Dravid is on 96 made me just forget sleep and rush to the tv and getting mesmerized by his strokes had breakfast and lazily lying on the bed watching 2 absorbing test matches..finally i washed my vehicle, had shave and got ready finally at 4..went to brand factory and did a bit of shopping..hogged and came back..watched half of Jaane tu.. movie with parents..love this time i spend with my parents..i wish i could stay and be more with my parents..ah now i just look back at the year 2008..not sure about an adjective the year..good,bad and ugly..seen it all..Given an option i wouldn't wish for this kind of an year..Now let me just hit some chip on my memory and jot down all major happenings month wise..

January...First month of the year..month to begin new things and make resoultions..nah..i don't believe in all this..every day is good to start something new or make some good resolution..was excited cos i would be completing my first year at work on january 11..oh ya Dravid's bday..little did i know that i wouldn't be completing my second year in the same company..nothing really exciting happened considering that my closest buddies are busy with their own life..anyway month just passed by with me enjoying work fixing some bugs and doing some chota mota enhancements..

February..month of love..again crap..there shouldn't be a month or day or time for love..it should be always there..ok stopping the non sense here..i donno why but i suddenly wanted to learn php just cos my manger told that i could be working on some php project..little did i know that php would land me in my present job..made my conscious efforts to study php but enthu lasted for 3 days :-) but i did make significant progress atleast i could code something in php..then one of our colleagues was getting married so i had to fill in for him and had to do QA on his behalf..it was fun..it was real fun finding bugs and fighting it out with the developers..celebrated couple of my friend's birthdays..some treats still pending..too bad this year has been..very few treats or outings..

March...this month alwyas reminds of 10th exams and India vs Australia,Kolkata tesr..anyway the php project did come and the cleint i was interacting was a genius in open source technologies..he did give me some gyaan about open source and all..seriously a gem of a guy..project went good with good amount of help from my good old friend..by this time i was feeling confident of being able to do any kind of work..couple of friends actually gave a treat but i don't even remember where and when..strange..

April..yay yay..birthday month..Its believed that people in this month are actually extra intelligent and make fool out of others..must be true!!!
bday was good but that is when i started hearing rumours about Epsilon India being shut down and all..but me being an eternal optimist or something i wasn't ready to hear all that..i guess it was me and one more guy who always kept some positive energy around among all freshers..A very important event took place..the girl whom i love(d) the most got married and damn i wasn't invited also..let it be..may she have a wonderful life..may be she will name her kid sanjay or sanjana..hopes!!!!

May..nothing great happened except character set enhancement and rumours on Epsilon being closed down..we had been to a nice camp called 'Doddamakli'..had a very relaxing holiday..wish to go on such holidays..all wishes won't come true..

June..i got into a project which involved html,css,photoshop(tool which i havent learnt completely yet)..it was too much stress man..used to work from morning 11 to 2 and sometimes 3..this is the time when my team lead taught me a lot of tricks and those have helped me a lot..the perfection he seeks..hmm..admirable..
One more friend celebrated his bday without a treat..Oh Ya two of my friends got engaged and to each other..

July..project continued and nothing else happened as there was no time.. news got confirmed that Epsilon India was certainly going to close down..ok..time to prepare resume and attended 3 interviews..first one was total crap at cricinfo..totally unprofessional..second one was screwing..after the interview i just felt like going back to school..third one interview only didn't take place cos the consultant had messed it up and they were not using technolgies i had know..but can be called a dream company for me..i just wished i would get a job there someday..the feeling went away when i joined Injoos :-)..my team lead got a job and couple of other guys closed in their offers..i was getting panicky until i found this nice consultant who is still a friend to me ..she scheduled 7 interviews in a week and i attended 3 and got into the first company..and cleared one more as well..was more than happy..so it was time to bid good bye to all my colleagues with whom i had fun for one and half years..

August..one by one colleagues were leaving and that was my last month at the company too..so all we used to do was go to office at 12.. have lunch at 1..tea at 3..roam around comm street at 4 and head back home at 8..was good fun until last week i was stuck up at some project..in fact last 2 days were screwing..underwent a minor surgery mid of the month..

September..i joined Injoos with my friend who has been with me since my first pu..its strange but true we have landed up in the same pu college..engg college..first comapany and second comapany also same..sometimes its nice to have someone whom u know from a long time around..atleast someone has been stuck with me for this long donno if it is by choice or by chance:-)..but he is good company speaks non stop,full of energy and excitement..most ppl say its difficult to stay with him but i have always felt comfortable and ahppy being with him cos he is simple,straight forward..oh oh ok no testimonials here...orkut is the place for that..new workplace but its just too good..love everything from office palce to food and cool drinks there..more importantly people over there..everyone are passionate about work and that is what makes a good and successful workplace..i woud anyday argue that hardwork with passion always bears sweet fruits atleast after my engineering i strongly believe in this..so got too engrossed in work and i love it..i released my first code as well just wondered if i had joined some big company how long it would have taken for me to submit my first code..

October..month of marriages..my friends got married and to each other :-)..my brothers got married but not to each other..so thre marriages all in all..i lost my grandpa..this was the first death i saw and it has had a very huge imapct on my life..i loved my grandpa a lot..he was an introvert but he always had storeis about his life to tell me..i don't think anyone else knows so much about him as i know..i probably am the only grand child of him who has been fortunate to get chocolates and stuff from him..past three years the things he used to do was sleep or fight with me but most of the times for fun..at the age of 88 his sharpness of words was unmatched for..i was fortnate to have grown up with my parents and grandparents so i have been brought up with lot of pampering and the best of 2 generations..i am what i am cos of them..all i can say is he is no more with us and wish that he would be happy whereever he is..great loss..

novemeber..all my grandpa's ceremonies were taking place..i would say that more than losing a person doing and following all rituals and procedures hurt more..
Release kept happening at work..one of my friends got engaged..

Decemeber..Injoos getting ready for beta release..am excited and happy..had an opportunity to design our corporate website and it was like a dream come true as i always wanted to develop a site all on my own..i loved it and felt real happy when i got good ratings from my ex team lead and a good friend..the comments from my friend was overwhelming.. he certainly deserves a mango juice for it..going to Tirupati..the next best place to home in this world for me..Coming back and expecting a better year..

Would call this year a losing year for me..
Lost my first job(i was not kicked out i resigned before company shut down)
Lost my grandpa..
Dravid had a bad year..has probably lost his position in ODI forever..
Kumble retired..so lost some spice in cricket..
Lost lots of fun cos friends are busy..supporting this with statistics on an average we used to have about 6 treats but this reduced to one this year..
we are 3 friends who have been meeting each other on an average of 7 times a month to once in 2 months..smses or calls have reduced to single digits this year..not sure what else to say..

Have a happy new year..

Show terror to terrorists

I don't watch tv much but from past 4 days i have been glued to tv to know what has been happening in Mumbai,i still can't believe that anyone can enter my country with loads of guns and grenades and attack my countrymen,is the security so bad!!!But its happened and let us make sure it doesn't happen.

On wednesday night around 11 in the night terrorists just drove in the roads of Mumbai firing their guns at people and then they enter Taj ,Oberoi,Narimaan house and hold captives and kill many people inside.Some policemen tried their best to fight the terrorists but ashamed to say that terrorists were well equipped than our policemen and due to such incapable equpments many of the able policemen had to sacrifice their own lives.In India NSG(National Security Guards) are all at one city,i still wonder the reasoning behind that,is it to save accomodation and training costs?if so it is at the cost of many innocent Indian lives.In India everything right from declaring birth of a baby to cremate a body needs permission or authorisation from the government and so orders were needed from some politician for the NSG to be drafted to work at Mumbai..Man!!!Give me a break why the hell should NSG wait for orders for some politician who wouldn't even know what NSG is meant for.Yes its midnight and the minister is sleeping and it takes time for the order to be issued and finally when such an order is made there is delay in getting transport for these guys.Fine all said and done they reach there and the hotels don't even have the construction plan,yes that is quite obvious in India,construction plan is needed only to get approval to construct a building and all the official does is take money based on the amount of violation on the plan and construction is done,so there is no concrete construction plan.So now with no clue as to what is in store for them inside and they can't even strategically plan their attack nor can they speculate the movements of terrorists and they enter to save people.The operations are being carried out.

Just spare a thought for the people who are inside stuck and for the families of those who are stuck in there,they would feel so helpless and people inside aren't sure whether they would come out alive or not.Then come the politicians..why on earth do they want to come to the scene of terror as Harsha Bhogle rightly asked "How many terrorists would a politicain kill if he comes there?Is he of any help or just a nuisance out there?"I think the second option suits the action.I hear so many people talking about movements and strikes and stuff but is anything being done about it.People forget about it after a week,in India i see more people in the category of "Baaton ka raja kaamon ka koja".Come on people and media just stop talking,do if u can or just stop talking.All should understand that its the people in power who can do something and not the normal man so make sure you put the right ppl there but if you feel there is no worthy person to be there take an intiative or identify an able person and try to get him into power.
its very easy to talk and point fingers but its difficult to put it into action.

From all this my personal experience is i am hurt and very sad,i can't stop crying looking at the scenes on tv and my blood boils but i am helpless,i can't do a thing and that hurts.All i can do is hope that people who are suppossed to do something about this will work and do something.
As a normal man i would prefer not be afraid of terrorism and be scared to go out or something,the motive of terrorists is to scare the normal man so don't let their motive succeed.NDTV made a big epsiode saying BigB has written a blog where he has written that he had kept a gun below his pillow and felt insecure,i don't feel anything right about it.
I hate the name gievn to them,we should never be terrified by their actions but we should make sure they get terrified for what they have done.

A word for terrorists:I heard a conversation of an involved terrorist with one of the journalists and i donno if its genuine or not,in it the terrorist was saying that muslims are being ill treated in India but i don't know how much educated these people are,i would just like to mention that India has progressed not only because of Hindus but cos of Indians and our ex President Abdul Kalam is a muslim,we have nearly 5 muslims in Indian cricket team,our highest paid and popular actor is a muslim SRK and we have top entraupauners who are muslims Azim Premiji.So i donno who have mind fucked these kids who are just 18 -22 years.And these people talk about being brave,yes i agree they don't care about their lives and attack but if they were really brave they wouldn't have attacked innocent people,they would have declared a war and fought.
Hey cowards my middle finger to you.

Conclusion:I salute to people who have sacrificed their lives to save the people and my heart feels for people who lost their near and dear ones.
I don't want any martyrs for my conutry,i want my country to be safe.

Journey called Life.

I know that the title sounds too heavy but all i want to write about now is some aspects of my life which has constantly changed.

By reading most of my posts you would have by now realized that am a narcissist and should tell you that a proud one as well.

Let me just trace back my life right from my school days and try to figure out the confidence quotient of mine.

Till my class 8th i have no clue how i was studying,all i knew was my dad used to ask me questions..every question and every subject and i used to answer,never did i study or read on my own,i still wonder how i could answer..was i so attentive in class??I have no clue but this is how i was till 8th so i didn't even know what confidence actually was back then.

In my 9th standard is when i started to study on my own and believe me it was one of the worst nightmares of my life.During the study holidays i used to study from 6 in the morning to 12 in the night without any break or anything and that is easily the hardest i have worked and that resulted in my worst performance ever,i landed in higher 60's somewhere in 68% i guess but before that consistently i was in higher 80's,pretty close to 90..So my confidence was dented very badly and the same year i was about to give my 10th exams!!!What did i do???did i work harder!!No all i did was relax and took studies more lightly and i did do well.got my confidence and good marks as well i scored 91.52%,one of the highest of my performances till then .

I joined college and whole of 1 puc all i did was come back from college just have a glance of what was done on the day and studies became simple and easy.
Second puc i joined tuitions(one of the best in Bangalore) and the way coaching was being done and the intensity of the routine broke my confidence and i doubted myself about doing well in exams but this didn't last long,i had college from 10 - 3:30 and tuitions from 5:30 to 9:15 so i had no time to study but that is when i became nocturnal and used to study till 2 in the night.I did get good marks and did well in cet as well though i couldn't get within 1000 which haunts me forever.

Next when i came to engg,i was confident and at the same time hard and smart working but my results never show that,i have been an average student according to marks in BE but i always felt i was much better than that but never did the marks dampen my confidence but in fact it pushed me to work harder.

I joined work and attended training for about 15 days,i swear i understood nothing other than 3 data types in perl and theory of oracle and everything else was much beyond me but i learnt html and css to good extent but little did i knew then that i would be working in the Ui team,i am very grateful for getting opportunity in that field.For about 4 months did some internal projects and through that i learnt a bit and then our academic project had to be completed in 10 days and worked real hard and then is when i got good knowledge about db,emb perl and javascript,i felt i wasn't so bad in my technical skills. Once college got over and got into full time work,i was fed up and lost confidence since i didn't have any worthwhile work for nearly 5 months,i got restless and had lost confidence cos didn't farewell in evaluation test so thought of qutting but that is when my team lead explained about the industry and told that we can't expect work always in an IT industry,i stuck there and for the next 5 months from then got good amount of work,but next six months is when i shaped my career to where i am now,i had to work on a php project,so learnt basics of php and did that and then some good enhancements were handed over to me and then building couple of decent websites,i had to toil and work real hard to get the concepts and implement them as well.It helped to grow better.So confidence was back

Then i joined my current company,i loved the atmosphere and the kind of work i would be into but at the same time had the pressure to perform cos the 3 other developers were just too brilliant and i always consider myself an average guy and i think that is what pushes me to work hard and do good.I have been part of about 3 releases now and i should say i am pretty happy and confident about myself,i never knew that i could be so good technically and i am loving the job,i like the atmosphere here and the freedom,the releases are very aggressive but i still don't see any time constraint for myself,in fact i am loving my work so much that i have always been in front of my laptop working if not in front of my lappy my mind is thinking about solving an issue or something,

Got no clue again as to why i wrote this post..

Sanjay Ke Thande Funde

These are some witty lines which has come to my mind during conversations or while driving or reading or playing or surfing or bathing.I have put some of them here and this post will be getting updated.


*I am bad at English but others i know are badder

*Everyone are entitled to their opinion no matter how stupid they are or how stupid it may seem to others.

*When a friend calls you out,just cross check if his/her gf/bf is busy,their vehicle is broken down or there is a shortage of vehicle or there is a need from you then you will understand the depth of your friendship.

*He who owes you nothing will always remain your friend,so that he can owe from you anytime.

*In olden days bus stops provided shelter for many homeless and needy and it still does but now for the college guys.

*Life is a game so everyone plays but with others lives.

*If every girl finds her own guy as it is happening in cities now,social crimes like dowry and abortion rates will go down.

*If there isn't a stop on the growth of the number of mobile phones,Government will introduce tax on them too.

Absolutely Confused!!!!!!!!!

What am i going through??Whats running on my mind??What am i feeling???Am i undergoing hormonal and enzyme changes..is it me going out of adolescence..or is it growing up..or becoming responsible..or taking up responsibility..or getting ready for personal commitment..or am i desperate..or is it just boredom..or am i finding new ways to spend money and while away time..or is it something more serious!!!as the title goes am totally absolutely soulfully and truthfully confused...

yes i confess that atleast once in a day i think about having a serious girlfriend(this with due respects to all my existing and historic girlfriends..he he) but whats that i need to do to have one...Crap!!whatever it is i am too lazy..let the right girl make her own way into my life..no no..i don't want to take chances.."This is my life and i am damn serious about it"..straight from RHTDM..absolutely baseless in this context...but sounded nice so added it..ok yeah that happens daily so what should i do..as far as i am concerned nothing..but i hope this isn't wrong..cos i have doubts whether its the right way to deal with it..lets come back to this later..first lets see the history behind this...

I have 2 very very close friends and baddi maklu..one is getting married and one has a gf since 3 years..has this company corrupted the innocent mind of me..may be..bad boys..ya getting a bit serious..yes i also think so that its nice to have female company especially when u msg ur friends for freaking out and they think twice..am not complaining..just writing my feelings out..

advantages:u get sweet smses always..frequent calls..ANYTIME company..kills boredom..ample care and concern..an able guide at times...constant encouragement and a permanent sure shot fan..confidence booster..

disadvantages:u get sweet smses always..frequent calls..always company..u get bored after a while..monotony..too much care and concern..too much bossy..too much interfernce..no space..CAN'T flirt..over expectation and the list just goes on..

it just depends on the way u look at things..

I am aimlessly going on typing here..why am i writing this post...huff..this is worse than "God tussi great ho" movie i guess...

ok...i think i got this thought cos of some parental pressure to get married and high quality boredom over some weekends..

On the more serious front..i think there is atleast an year to go before i get ready for the phase of my life..

On whether i would find a girl myself or not..mostly not..i would give my parents the deserved preivilage and i would approve if i like her..(i seriously donno till when this would be valid) i have loved one girl and she is happily married so i don't have any other choice i guess..

One thing is very sure..i am not looking for a girlfriend..if i find one i wouldn't ignore..

I have done all the things upto now at the right time and i would get this done at the perfect moment..

PS:Without having a "gf"..i experience the advantages and disadvantages i have mentioned thanks to my sweet friend...

after reading this post people may have hundred judgements about but who the hell cares..i write what i feel..i care to opinion or judgement of none..
Writing this post was really funny happy and felt real good..

Rules, Regulations and Laws in India

This is one of my favorite topics to debate on right from my school days.I guess i would have spoken about this to every relative who has spoken sense with me.

This topic came to my mind when one of my friends who was here from US was discussing about the accident he had and the compensation he received.The incident was like he was in his friend's car and a guy came and hit the car and ran away..within moments some 4 police cars arrived and one police car were checking on the guys in the car and other 3 went and got the guy and a case was filed and all the guys in the car got compensated..may be a wrong word cos none of them had any injury or loss but still compensated..Whatever but where as in India "hit n run" is a common scenario and forget about the person responsible for it getting caught the person injured won't even get help for hours in some cases.

There are 3 incidents that happened which are very serious and nothing has been done so far.
1.My friend's uncle was run down by a Charisse and he lost his life.Driver ran away and i guess the case is going on..donno when it will be closed.

2.My friend's car was hit by a private bus in one of the national highways and one of my friends is seriously injured and nothing has been done yet.I have heard from ppl there that private buses running down ppl is a very common scenario..Holy crap..

3.This is just too inhuman..one of my friends was driving his bike from Bangalore to Hassan and he was run down by some vehicle(none knows about the incident) and he was lying down there and rather than he getting some help he was hit on his head and robbed of his phone and other valuables..Wow..what a nice gesture.


I am not complaining about India or anything just wanting to know why law and order is not being maintained..Lack of people???

Ppl may argue saying US has less people so maintaing law and order is easy but y can't ppl understand that it is more necessary in India mainly cos of so much population.

And our constitution is so damn rotten old that a 16 year old can get a learner's liecence for a 50cc vehicle only.Can anyone tell me any existing 50cc vehicle...
Why can't ppl understand that everything has an expiry date..Politicians have been using Mercedes instead of ambassadors.Why can't constituion be altered based on need?

And corruption!!!!!I hate this bloody thing to the core..
I lost my mobile and early morning my dad went to lodge a complaint,the answer he gets is "Sir,early morning no business yet.."what does that mean???

If all these and such things are not taken care of India will be a developing nation forever with individual Indian swiss accounts being piled up..

Relief,Belief,Realisation and Hope

Last couple of months have been very demanding both on the physical and mental front.I joined Epsilon(Marlabs sounds better) with a cloud of hope of a blooming career and of course a long one here and what not i did for it,I fought against my low confidence and for about a month worked for 3 teams ( UI,web development and QA)..After 18 months where am i???Looking out for a job and a cloud of hope again..Whats the reason??Not my performance or anything related to sanity but due to some mergers and internal higher management conflicts the India team is supposedly closing down..What is the mistake of fresh college passout with dreams who have joined this company? worng choice!!!How the hell do students know about this dirty stuff that happens in some dirty brains of the management.I don't give a damn but irritated cos was a victim of it but certainly learnt a lot.I went through some interviews not knowing what technology they were using..Then after a couple of such mistakes by consultancies i got into a startup company called "injoos"..Happy and relived..

Right from my childhood i love Tirupati.I feel the difference in myself when i am there..can't explain...May be a coincidence or may be luck..All good things in my life happen when am there or planning to go there..Love the place and feeling..I have my belief in the safe hands of the divine almighty Lord Venkateshwara..

Whenever i am traveling i have this habit of allowing the wind to blow across my face(not that i can disallow:-) ) and that is the time i give for introspecting myself.The journey back from Tirupati on July 30 2008 was a pretty serious one.. I looked back at my life and saw that it had been nearly an year that i had given quality time for myself..What was i doing??? Trying to shape up my career i guess..hmmmm..donno if its a good enough reason to deny time for myself in fact no reason would be..Have i given time for my parents and grandma??NO was the answer..shocked and sad i was but knew they would have understood the situation..for friends????sad but true..neither of them had time to find out about my time..They have "moved on"(whatever it means) but what i realised the most was if i had given enough time for myself i would have been a much balanced person than what i was during the small crisis i went through.I decided that i would give time for my parents and grandma..they deserve the most..i surely and certainly will have time for myself..last but never ever the least i always have time for friends who have time for me..This realisation struck me when i was just gazing at the sky and looked at the stars,,it had been months since i saw stars in the sky..A mi so busy???Crap!!! i disagree..there used to a time when me and my friends used to identify the constellations but now i don't even see stars..he he..


Relief that i have a job...Belief that Lord Venkateshwara is there with me when i am on the right track..Realised that time is precious and needs to be spent in precious ways with precious ones and hope that my belief keeps me relived and realised always..

Tough Times

Yo people..long time no see..

Over the past month there has been an uncertainty over the job..
There have been rumours that 'India operations' would be shut down and all that crap but none has any official news.

My manager in US is the only guy who has been optimistic and encouraging.
He is a gem of a guy,i adore and admire him a lot.Great human being.

So there i started getting startled and applied for jobs and attended interviews.
First interview was bad.Second interview good but a crappy profile and workplace.Third company i went for was just like a dream company but i had no experience or knowledge for the profile they were looking for.

And on my current company,i am too emotional to leave it,its a cool place to work and learn.

I have got some other projects apart form work which has kept me occupied way too much.Working from 11 in the morning to 3 in the morning for 20 days and without a break over the weekend.

I need a break a good break.Let me see when i get it.

Disturbed...

After all those happy times there has been a testing time for me in the past month or so but i enjoy it as well..I don't give a bloody fuck to these bad times..i will show my middle finger and move on stronger...

First i lost my cell phone..due to my carelessness or bad luck..being an emotional fool like me it took nearly a week to console myself..emotional towards it cos had bought it with a part of my first salary and had lots of messages stored in it..

Then the girl whom i had loved for 13 years got married..God bless her..

Then my lovely friend is moving to chennai for 1 year for CA coaching..Will miss her dearly..

Happy Times..

Wow feeling good...Everything going smooth in life..Things are pretty fine on the personal front except for a bit of boredom..Time is looking bright on the professional front..in fact great....

Let me just list all the good news i have heard lately..

Two of my friends got married.
One my classmate..had a very good time in her marriage.
Another..one of my closest and sweetest friends(she is just like a kid to me)..felt really relived and very happy for her..

My dad got trabsferred back to Bangalore.. I was waiting for this very badly..Now he can be relaxed and peaceful without those tiring travel everyday..

My friend cleared her critical subject..what a relief to her..Me very happy for her..

I got 'Employee of the Month' award...

All my relatives had come home on the day after 'Ugadi'..had a very good time and felt nice being with everyone..

Nice way to end and start a year..Future is looking very promising..

Born to win..Love it..

31st post : For someone special.

Will write shortly..

H e he..when i started to write this i had lots of hope and now i have lost hope..She is married happily..and am happy for her and her family..
She lost something but not me..
She will never find a guy who can love her more than me..She was a goddess to me..

Ah!!! What a feeling......

After a long day at work,i just waved good bye to the security guard,reached the parking lot,plugged my ear phones and started riding my bike listening to some cool music..traffic was much as usual..as i drove in a peaceful manner rather than my usual way i saw a girl in her scooty at the 'Chalukya Hotel' signal..Am being shameless,yes i went and parked my vehicle right next to her but signal went green and vroom she went..then i enjoyed the music and drove slowly singing the song a bit loudly..then the 'Your're beautiful' song came and suddenly did this girl right in front of me..i got a glimpse of her face and man she was gorgeous and beautiful...What an appropriate song..but the lyrics which came out from my mouth was a bit different..

MY life is brilliant
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me in the signal
She was on her scooty
'But I've got no plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yes, she caught my eye,
As we drove by.
She could see from my face that I was,
awestruck,admiring her beauty
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last 'till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

La la la la la la la la la

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.



I bloody got so intense looking at her that i didn't bother about my riding much..I changed my route just to be with her for a couple of more minutes and i prayed there should be a traffic jam..she went i came but the feeling was awesome..

But its true fairytales won't come true and i will never meet her again..

Trip to Ghati...

It was a lazy saturday evening when suddenly i decided to go to Ghati the next morning mainly cos i wanted to travel by bus and my parents wanted me to go there..Had plans of sleeping early and getting up early...neither happened..slept at around 3 and got up at 8..Reached Mekhri circle bus stop by 9:30..then from there got a bus to Doddabalapur..it was a nice feeling to travel by bus after a long time..Switched on my mp3 stick and enjoyed the cool breeze and the greenery around..After one hour forty five minutes was in the Dbpur bus stand..bought a couple of fruit-n-nut chocolate bars and found a small cab luckily i got a seat..the capacity of the cab was about 10 including the driver but actually there were nearly 40 ppl on the cab..Happens only in India..after a slow journey for about 25minutes on the bumpy mud roads reached Ghati around 12:30..Ghati is a small town with just 3 roads..one road which has about 30-40 houses and the other road which has a temple and around 20 shop cum houses ..i just left my shoes and entered the temple and stood in a long queue..stood in the queue for nearly 40 minutes just to have a glimpse of God for about few seconds..then came out..my phone had no network so had to find a phonebooth to call up my friends who were staying there for field work as part of their civil engg curriculum but the phones weren't working just as i was wondering how to contact them i came across a small house kind of thing and seeing one girl there asked if that is where Bms civil engg students staying but to my surprise she was one the friends i knew and soon the gang of friends came and took me inside..My kiddo friend Bhargs was too happy and excited to see me..started asking about my journey and started showing their survey sheets..then i gave the chocolates to them and we all finished it in minutes..I was really happy to see all these friends of mine who really enjoyed my visit there..then we spoke for a while and starting thinking for a place to have lunch and since there wasn't any good place there we decided to go to temple for lunch after a lot of debate among ourselves..then we stood in the queue for about 20 minutes and we had our lunch which was really really bad...then we came out had tender coconut and then i bid good bye to them and caught a small cab..now i was supposed to stand on the foot board the journey..i enjoyed it..holding the bus with only one hand and only one feet in the bus...It was too much fun..then took a bus back to Bangalore..It was a very good and relaxing day..Decided need to go to such trips more often..

Expectations....Changes...Whatever..Life goes on....

As my first post goes Change is eternal and the only thing we can do is adapt to the change quickly..

I am not sure if i will be able to put my thoughts into words but i will try..

In life we come across lots and lots of ppl..some friends..some acquaintances..some competitors..and many more..but do all of them be the same throughout..NO..cos every moment everything changes..just like time everything changes so there is no valid point in a person expecting all or any of these ppl to be the same throughout..I will just tell an example..On my first day at PU i had a fight with one of the guys and the grudge continued till we passed out of college..There wasn't a single moment where we could tolerate each other but after about 3 years he found my profile on orkut and we started chatting with each other as if we were the closest of buddies in college and missed each other so with time everything changes..

You don't feel much if a person who is not in good terms with you changes for good..You just feel surprised..But its not the same when a person close to you changes..Initially you start missing the person and start feeling alone..miss all the moments you spent with him/her..You start anticipating him/her to change back to normal every moment..You try to be passive about the changes for few days then you try to indicate it to the other person..then you accept the change and change yourself accordingly..but if the person after a while changes back to how he/she was before also the excitement and the intimacy of the relationship seldom relives....

Whatever..

Do something for the society..

I have always admired Tata..don't remember which one but the one who told Mrs.Sudha Murthy "Give something in return to the society"..and Mrs.Sudha Murthy has followed it and thanks to her generous work Bangalore is bearable in some fronts..the movie of 'Nirmala Bangalore' and 'Swacha Bangalore' are successful..We always look at Narayan Murthy and others and get ourselves motivated to have such big pay checks but why not just follow some of their good deeds..

We usually spend somewhere around say 1 to 1.5k every month on eating outside and stuff..and we spend most of our weekends either being lazy at home or loafing around..I am not saying spend little and donate neither am i saying not to take rest on weekends..but we can try to somehow contribute 1k on some noble cause like trying to sponsor education of someone needy right from his/her school age..or atleast give a bit of your time to the orphans at an orphanage..be with them..just interact with them..that gives them so much happiness..
and even on birthdays why can't we just give the kids of an orphanage a treat..i think that would give them immense happiness..
i have seen people spending thousands and sometimes even lakhs of rupees donating to temples and performing some poojas..why can't we just donate some amount there and spend the rest on someone needy..

I have just put out my thoughts but again i would like to follow my friend's favorite Swami Vivekananda's saying "Be the change you wish to see"..
Hope i can be the change and wish to see the change in others too..

Can we fight corruption?

This is a question i have been asking myself for quite a long time now..everytime i read something about corruption i feel this shouldn't be continuing..everytime i watch a movie about revolution i feel yes i should also do something like that but most of it isn't practical..fine..lets not fight it but we can atleast not contribute to it..Do you think its possible???nope..very seldom can we avoid it.. suppose you gottu register a new house or property..just try if you can get it done without paying money to a broker or bribing the officer..damn it..its just not possible..
you need to pay the police to make him sign for the verification letter to get your passport..Damn the world..I want to change it but how?????

New Sprite Ad..

From the time sprite ads sprang into existence i have been a fan of them simple because they are simple,funny and sensible....

The first ad where a guy will be drinking sprite lying on the college steps and another guy tries to explain all the different means of enjoying and ultimately the guy drinking sprite says 'tho ab mein kya raha hoo'...That was nice and humorous..

Then there was that 'jaadoo ke peeche' to mock the Mountain dew ad of "do the dew"..which was a clear hit to me...

Then the story of the thirsty crow was just the act of brilliance..

But clearly the recent ad is just too amazing..it has a moral to it as well..it always works out that it is easier to escape speaking truth than otherwise..very sledomly is truth put under scrutiny..

Ah!!! Lazy Sunday!!!

Being lazy for a change makes you feel too refreshed...after a long week at office and a long saturday of roaming around..being lazy on sunday actually helps rejuvenate energy required for the new week..

for me sleeping only is not being lazy..you gottu be awake and must not do anything..even eating..thats being lazy..and thats what i did this sunday (10 feb 2008) slept at 3.00am on sunday morning and then woke up at 8:00..just went to the other room..cuddled myself in the blanket..switched on the tv..cricket match started..was sleeping for a while and watching the match..then wrestling started so was switching between channels watching 2 of the most interesting things i would like to watch on tv...messaging ppl..receive calls and speak lazily..then had breakfast around 12..again came back and resumed watching tv...then went back to my room..watched some stupid movie..was so lazy that i didn't bother to change the movie ...then finally got up and took bath with loud music at around 3:30..went to big bazaar to get a shirt exchnaged..then had lunch at pizza hut around 5.00......Then came back and started watching another movie..power went off..had dinner around 10.00..slept off at 12.30..very early to my standards..Ah..indeed a lazy sunday...

Vague Blog...

what is our professions doing to our personal lives...we just get so involved in our profession that we forget that we have a personal life..everyone of us are interested in making a big name and chunks of money at the expense of our personal life and relationships..we sometimes have to wait for weekends to speak to our own parents staying in the same home..Thanks to us we can call our homes as houses now..Fine all this apart...I miss being lazy after joining work,lazy in the sense having something to do but not doing it..after getting into this profession my mind is always occupied with something or the other related to work and work only..even in my dreams i just keep thinking about work and how to perform better..yes i was the same during college too,i always was occupied with studies but then i used to hang out with friends and spend time with my parents..not able to do this now..may be my office timings are like that..yeah look at me i am just giving reasons..this is one bad thing among us.we always try to blame others for everything..
Just wanna conclude by saying we gottu make a clear distinction between our professional life and personal life and balance in such a way that we are happy on both fronts..

Innovative Film City...

Me and my friends had been planning an outing from a long time..In the middle of the week my friend just gave me a call and told me about this place..So i just checked the internet to find more about the place..Got a decent idea of what it has and so we decided to go to that place that saturday..

We started near the shell petrol bunk on Mysore Road and finally when everyone came we started the drive at about 9.10 and not knowing where it is went all the way to Ramanagar..then realized it was near Toyota Kirloskar motors..There is a road opposite to Toyota Kirloskar motors..Its about a 5 km drive in the road..We reached there at about 10:30..seeing the board "open for trial run" we thought the place wasn't worth it..but hearing that certain things are completed we bought the tickets and went in..We first went to "Louis Tussad's wax museum",it was a good one..there were pretty good collection..some good some average..Then we went to "Ripley's believe it or not museum"..its a pretty good one with good collection..then we were hungry and went to hog..there are only 2 stalls open..one north style and one south style..we had pretty good food at reasonable price and then went for go karting..Its a pretty good track for karting..cars were good which can speed upto 70 easily..since the track was newly made it was slippery..we enjoyed it thoroughly..its 100RS for 6 laps..safety measures need to be increased here..then there is a collection of kiddo games..we went for dashing cars and there u have sponge balls whihc cane be loaded to cars and shot at each other..since the guns werent working we took the balls and started hurling at each other..it was good fun..Then we went to a artificial beach..not a big one but since we were wanting to escape from the heat we went and just enjoyed to the core..it was still under construction..then we played volley ball on sand..we spent a lot of time here..then there was a dino park..where they have kept statues of various dinos and speakers there will be making noise always...We didn't have time to go to funplex which they told was a very good game arcade..This is the time to go cos its cheap inly 50 rupees entry fee..

The other things coming up are 21 screen multiplex,mirror maze,haunted mansion,cartoon park,fossil museum and much more..It will be fully functional by april and heard its gonna be very expensive..Nice place to go and relax and have fun..

Can anyone give me an answer?

This incident happened around 5 years ago and it will be remembered throughout my life.

I with a couple of my friends had been to Malleshwaram to have tasty butter dosas and had parked my vehicle opposite the circle cricket ground,when i was taking my vehicle back a small boy came and asked for money, i just took a 2 rupee coin and gave it to him,he demanded more but i said its enough and came home...donno why but the incident kept haunting me so i again went to that parking lot just to find that boy and i found him..I spoke to him and asked about who he is and what he does..he told he is alone and stays there in the ground itself with a couple of other kids and told he eats food from the money he gets by looking after vehicles and sometimes wiping cars..felt sad and handed him a 20rupees note..he was happy and i came off...I wanted to help the boy but how..just giving him some money doesn't serve the purpose..I had heard about free education and free food in schools..but i had also read about the quality of food they provide...Taking this particular case i analyzed the forthcomings if he joined those schools..may be he will get education till 10th and a glass of milk and a meal per day but what is he supposed to do for breakfast and dinner..hw can he afford money for his books..suppose he got books too what will he do for his food should he again stand in the parking lot and earn his breakfast and dinner..he told sometimes standing the whole day he may earn just 20 rupees..and hw many days he may have to starve if he went to school..when will he have time to study..suppose he overcame all this and completed his SSLC..what will he do further..does government fund his future education or does he get a job with SSLC..NO is the answer i got..he may again have to stand in the same parking lot and earn his food..So whats the use of free primary education for such kids??.. I may help this kid but there are thousands of kids like this..what can we do help them???I may just write a blog and be sad but is it going to help such kids in anyway..I want to help them but donno how..

One way which attracted me was what PESIT is doing,they gather boys about 15-18yrs age group and give them primary training in carpentry and welding and other petty jobs in the mechanical workshops so that they could make a living out of it..

I request all those people who went through this blog to kindly spare a moment and think about these kids and do whatever you can to help these kids..
They are the future of our country,please let them have the opportunity and support to make the future bright..

Convocation!!!A memorable Day

Yes writing a post after quite a long while..Work kept me at bay..

Convocation...A day which marks the success of a graduate.Yes on my induction the day i looked forward was the convocation..What a long and memorable journey it has been..i almost remember every moment of it..yeah induction was on 20th september 2003 and convocation 19th january 2008..a journey which prepares you to make a smooth transition from a student to a professional....
First year just went by getting into the groove of engg..made friends..wrote lots of internals and then exams..second year was fun..internals and extra classes had become a routine..we had got used to friends and having fun was what we did for the rest of engg..sleeping and talking in class was the best way to while away time..numerous games get invented amidst the 4 walls of a classroom and inspiration of course would be boring lectures and encouraging classmates..there would be that petty differences among gangs and those never ending competition among toppers and of course the ever enjoying last benchers..man what fun college is...bringing mobile to class and hiding it from teachers..having food during lectures..planning a mass bunk numerous times...

all this wouldn't have happened so memorable if not for the friends who r with u at all times..we would miss them badly..of course very badly..spending most of the day with those ppl for 4 years and suddenly u won't find them for months or years and some may be never..memories are what we can cherish but can never re live them...

convocation is when you feel happy for becoming a graduate but at the same time it hurts to say good bye to college and all those friends who have made the college life cherish able..

All the best to all you ppl..

Victory for team India.....

Ah!!!after all the crap that happened at Sydney there was a game of cricket at Perth..As the history goes its the venue where Australia have tried to tame their strong opponents by firing their fast bowlers but its the same strategy that backfired for them when the inspirational team India decided to defy the rude Aussies once again to stretch their record of 16 consecutive wins to 17..he he..this will haunt the aussies..A win India should be proud of..everyone played their part..excellent captaincy and bowling from Kumble..Brilliant batting by Dravid,Tendulkar and very very special Laxman..Excellent bowling from Pathan,Singh and Ishant..Altogether a great performance..

Legends of Indian Cricket..

I am an eternal fan of cricket and an admirer of Indian Cricket team..I have great reverence for some of the cricketers..I am emotionally attached to the team cos they play for my country..there have been many moments when i had to hide my tears of sadness due to an Indian team loss just not to feel embarrassed in front of others..Some matches that hurt me a lot were losses at Chennai(record 194 scored by Saeed Anwar)...Sharjah match against australia where india qulified for the final and won it thanks to brilliant effort by sachin..Loss to pakistan at chennai test match by 18 runs..loss in the 96 world cup against australia and sri lanka...Fine there are lots..But some of the players who have been through all such times and helped Indian Team proud of many victories are what i am going to take you through in this blog..

First and foremost my heart salutes and at the same time feels for the great man Anil Kumble..a gentleman of the game with perseverance as his middle name has helped India to win numerous times..his dedication and hard work are admirable..but sadly he hasn't got the credit he deserves..perhaps no Indian bowler is as great as he is..In the era of batsmen he has been over shadowed but never has he shown it..no matter what he keeps coming with his performances..A humble honest and a true fighter of the game..A great ambassador of Indian cricket..

Secondly i will talk about the genius Sachin Tendulkar..a man who made impossible possible..he almost holds 90% of the records when it comes to batting..he has at times carried the burden of Indian batting entirely on his shoulders..he is a dignified and respectable personality..his passion and dedication to Indian team is invaluable..Thanks to him Indian cricket reached a new level..but i would have loved him to be more proactive..

Next my Idol,personal favorite,the Wall Mr.Rahul Dravid..grit,determination,loyalty,perfection personified..A great gentleman and a consistent performer..he has many records to his credit but like Kumble he did struggle to get the credits he deserved but strove hard and eventually got it..His consistent performance was the key for India being victorious in most of the matches from 1996 to present..He has alone as his nick suggests has stood like a wall and saved so many matches for India..He just can do anything for the benefit of the team right from wicket keeping to fit in an extra player to open the innings..I always regret the idea of taking him out of the number 3 position in both ODI's and tests..his presence there would have been more beneficial for th team..Admirable sports person..

Then there is Sourav Ganguly..an able leader..one of the finest batsmen India has ever produced..his batting was just mystical to watch but he lost his touch after a while and struggled for about 2 years but his comeback is a tribute his "never say die" spirit..he went through a lot of humiliation but in the end he himself earned the respect he deserved..i have always admired his "an eye for and eye"attitude thanks to which many victories were possible for India under his able leadership..If he hadn't lost his touch in batting..i am sure he would have a been tough competition for Sachin for many records..

Then there is very very special Laxman..elegance and simplicity personified..One person who has always had the need to prove himself despite some mind boggling performances..his majestic wrist work is just a pleasure to watch..his lazy cover drives are a treat for the eyes..i feel for him cos he was the most over shadowed player in the Indian team..but he is a silent performer..

Thanks to these legends Indian team is at an honorable position..

cricketers for the future..Irfan Pathan,Robin Uthappa..Sreesanth..Yuvraj..Dhoni..i would like to see Kaif shine as well..

Umpiring India vs Australia @SCG(2008)

Huh!!!Umpiring at its worst..ya what else do u expect when u have Steve Bucknor given the job..Damn it!!!Decisions can change the course of the game...Are they really mistakes or purely intentional..doesn't seem mistakes to me when it happens against one side for the majority of times..Crap!!!players can't show reactions against those morons..What have the umpires gottu lose..but for players,its their careers,pride of their country...Its high time ppl should raise their voices against the indignity being caused to the game..How much should players like Sachin and Dravid take..Gentlemen in the true sense these 2 are..apart from being role models for their cricketing talent,they can be admired for their behavior...Yes that apart..let me just talk through some rough decisions that happened through what i call one of the disgraced test matches in terms of umpiring..

1.Ponting edged a ball from ganguly down the legside and dhoni caught the ball off the ground unlike some australians who touch the ground with the ball (may be some superstition )but the umpire probably had his Ipod on not to hear the edge and must have been sleeping away to glory behind the sun glasses not to see the edge..

2.Then ponting was given LBW for a ball which he edged onto his pads..ponting cribbed as if someone had cheated him his meal..ya but it was very decent for the referee(yes it was innocence and dignity personified by ponting)..Only decision against australia..

3.Symond's stumping..hey come on i cannot blame the third umpire for this..may be he was watching porn on his tv and suddenly he had to make a decision..he might have pressed one of the buttons or he might have been shown some other replay by the aussie cameras..

4.Then Symond's got an edge off Ishant's bowling..hey come on i and the commentators and indian players saw and heard the edge..how can the umpire,may be he hasn't cleaned his ears for ages..and how can he see an edge..fine..why is he supposed to see the edge...oh he is the umpire... is he???Ridiculous!!!yeah Ishant trying to aspire his career by getting batsmen out and showing his disappointment at the wrong decision is infact ridiculous for the referee..of course he doesn't have the right to do so cos he doesn't hail from australia.

I have lost count on the number of decisions given in the favour of australians during their batting..

5. Dravid just padded a ball to gilchrist,aussies started appealing and buckor gave it out...was it LBW or caught behind???commentators didn't have a clue i don't think even dravid did..Important wicket and aussies wanted to get it somehow,no matter how cheap they might have to go..Gilchrist considered one of the honest guys of cricket appealed so convincingly that any umpire could have been fooled,then obviously foolish bucknor did get fooled..

6.Thank God!!!This wasn't given..Dhoni's gloves probably kissed the ball and it flew in the air..ponting dived across and took the catch and with the ball on ground as support stood up and started appealing..grow up ponting,this isn't gully cricket and none will be given out for bump catches..oh i am sorry bucknor is the umpire..Bad luck ponting..he was thoroughly disappointed..

7.Ganguly who was batting magnificently edged a ball to slip..clarke picked it up from the ground and appealed..(catching the ball by touching the ball to ground is a superstition) ..benson just looked at the innocent slip fielder ponting for assistance and he gave it as out..i have seen umpires taking assistance from the square leg umpire but ..fine cut the crap...