Absolutely Confused!!!!!!!!!

What am i going through??Whats running on my mind??What am i feeling???Am i undergoing hormonal and enzyme changes..is it me going out of adolescence..or is it growing up..or becoming responsible..or taking up responsibility..or getting ready for personal commitment..or am i desperate..or is it just boredom..or am i finding new ways to spend money and while away time..or is it something more serious!!!as the title goes am totally absolutely soulfully and truthfully confused...

yes i confess that atleast once in a day i think about having a serious girlfriend(this with due respects to all my existing and historic girlfriends..he he) but whats that i need to do to have one...Crap!!whatever it is i am too lazy..let the right girl make her own way into my life..no no..i don't want to take chances.."This is my life and i am damn serious about it"..straight from RHTDM..absolutely baseless in this context...but sounded nice so added it..ok yeah that happens daily so what should i do..as far as i am concerned nothing..but i hope this isn't wrong..cos i have doubts whether its the right way to deal with it..lets come back to this later..first lets see the history behind this...

I have 2 very very close friends and baddi maklu..one is getting married and one has a gf since 3 years..has this company corrupted the innocent mind of me..may be..bad boys..ya getting a bit serious..yes i also think so that its nice to have female company especially when u msg ur friends for freaking out and they think twice..am not complaining..just writing my feelings out..

advantages:u get sweet smses always..frequent calls..ANYTIME company..kills boredom..ample care and concern..an able guide at times...constant encouragement and a permanent sure shot fan..confidence booster..

disadvantages:u get sweet smses always..frequent calls..always company..u get bored after a while..monotony..too much care and concern..too much bossy..too much interfernce..no space..CAN'T flirt..over expectation and the list just goes on..

it just depends on the way u look at things..

I am aimlessly going on typing here..why am i writing this post...huff..this is worse than "God tussi great ho" movie i guess...

ok...i think i got this thought cos of some parental pressure to get married and high quality boredom over some weekends..

On the more serious front..i think there is atleast an year to go before i get ready for the phase of my life..

On whether i would find a girl myself or not..mostly not..i would give my parents the deserved preivilage and i would approve if i like her..(i seriously donno till when this would be valid) i have loved one girl and she is happily married so i don't have any other choice i guess..

One thing is very sure..i am not looking for a girlfriend..if i find one i wouldn't ignore..

I have done all the things upto now at the right time and i would get this done at the perfect moment..

PS:Without having a "gf"..i experience the advantages and disadvantages i have mentioned thanks to my sweet friend...

after reading this post people may have hundred judgements about but who the hell cares..i write what i feel..i care to opinion or judgement of none..
Writing this post was really funny happy and felt real good..

Rules, Regulations and Laws in India

This is one of my favorite topics to debate on right from my school days.I guess i would have spoken about this to every relative who has spoken sense with me.

This topic came to my mind when one of my friends who was here from US was discussing about the accident he had and the compensation he received.The incident was like he was in his friend's car and a guy came and hit the car and ran away..within moments some 4 police cars arrived and one police car were checking on the guys in the car and other 3 went and got the guy and a case was filed and all the guys in the car got compensated..may be a wrong word cos none of them had any injury or loss but still compensated..Whatever but where as in India "hit n run" is a common scenario and forget about the person responsible for it getting caught the person injured won't even get help for hours in some cases.

There are 3 incidents that happened which are very serious and nothing has been done so far.
1.My friend's uncle was run down by a Charisse and he lost his life.Driver ran away and i guess the case is going on..donno when it will be closed.

2.My friend's car was hit by a private bus in one of the national highways and one of my friends is seriously injured and nothing has been done yet.I have heard from ppl there that private buses running down ppl is a very common scenario..Holy crap..

3.This is just too inhuman..one of my friends was driving his bike from Bangalore to Hassan and he was run down by some vehicle(none knows about the incident) and he was lying down there and rather than he getting some help he was hit on his head and robbed of his phone and other valuables..Wow..what a nice gesture.


I am not complaining about India or anything just wanting to know why law and order is not being maintained..Lack of people???

Ppl may argue saying US has less people so maintaing law and order is easy but y can't ppl understand that it is more necessary in India mainly cos of so much population.

And our constitution is so damn rotten old that a 16 year old can get a learner's liecence for a 50cc vehicle only.Can anyone tell me any existing 50cc vehicle...
Why can't ppl understand that everything has an expiry date..Politicians have been using Mercedes instead of ambassadors.Why can't constituion be altered based on need?

And corruption!!!!!I hate this bloody thing to the core..
I lost my mobile and early morning my dad went to lodge a complaint,the answer he gets is "Sir,early morning no business yet.."what does that mean???

If all these and such things are not taken care of India will be a developing nation forever with individual Indian swiss accounts being piled up..