No Wonder am Wandering..

I have always been very focused and never have i seen myself having long term goals.
Its always been phase by phase..When in school it was about getting good scores not even knowing what i wanted to do next..When in college was to focus on getting into good college..When in college to get a placement..Once in company was just to learn work and enjoy whatever i was doing..My only long term goal was to be my own Boss, which came in as an opportunity and i grabbed with both hands and legs as one of my friends point out..When i have reached this point is where i am having trouble..I am not an outright technical guy but at the same time not the managerial type but have the confidence in doing well on any of the roles and have done well in the past..but what do i like to do..question which has been haunting me for quite a few days now..i want to be a manager and also wants to get involved as a developer..i know its not that easy looking at how demanding a managerial role is but i am willing to put in that extra effort..working for 14-15 hrs a day is not alien to me..
Being a manager all you need to do is design process, monitor the work, build out strategy, asses the progress, send status reports, bill the clients, build out salary slips, budget, attend meetings on all levels, daily scrums, to strategic planning meetings, to decision making on new tools to be procured etc..This is all good work i agree but am i too young to be taken out of the challenging environment of development..break my head to fix a bug..google hours together to built a new feature..search for new plug-ins that can be used, design the framework for a new feature, try to search code to do a ctrl+c and ctrl+v..Miss all the fun..

But at this point my focus has to be on my company because its 2 clients and 9 people depending on me to sail the ship and a partner who trusts me undoubtedly to lead the team..

May be some time in the future i do get into development scheme of things..Hope it won't be too late..

A Typical Weekend For Me

A man who has been branded as workaholic is usually a man who does nothing other than work on the weekdays but i don't think his weekends would be so boring :-)

yes weekend is when i try to relax and have some fun.

Perfect recipe for a good weekend is venturing out on Saturday and being lazy on a Sunday.

I would prefer every weekend to be a perfect dish with the above ingredients. If it happens..this is how it goes..

Getting up early in the morning may be around 8:00(mind you..this is after closing shop around 4-5 on friday(saturday morning)

Making it to the movie barely on time with just stuffing a piece of whatever grandma feeds and a full glass of milk going full throttle into the tummy.

Watch the movie with a small nap in between :-)

buy some pop corn and tons of Cola in the interval..

Go out for lunch to some chinese/pizza/north Indian and crib saying Idly sambhar is what i should have had and this restaurant sucks..

Window Shopping..

Sankey Tank .. have ice cream and Corn (Jola) before entering..Enjoying the nature at Sankey tank..Talking everything under the sun which makes sense and some not..

Passing the ball among friends to decide the place for early dinner..End up going to a couple of places since there never is an unanimous choice..

Hit the Cd shop..rent some old movies and some new ones..Watch one of the movies and simultaneously read the book..Yes i don't like doing one thing at a time..

Sleep around 2-3 after parents try all methods from sweet words to scolding to put me to sleep..

Sunday get up around 1-2..

Have brunch..

Go back to sleep with either music or movie on lappy..

Get up and take bath around 5-6..

Just go out for a walk around and have some chats..

Come back..Have dinner.. Sleeeeeeppp..to wake up to another workaholic week..

Aall izz Well or Is it?

Recently i saw a very nice blog written about the after effects on him after watching the '3 idiots'..Yeah..all will not be well after you watch the movie..it is so well made with scenes and dialogues in every part of the movie which can make you think and think and think..
Yeah..the sure on the face message of the movie is do what you love and not follow the popular choice if that is not what you don't want to be...but..do you feel in reality this can happen?..This should happen is a different scenario..will it happen is my question..just think about a minute..are you ready to allow your kid to go play cricket and make a career out of it..Think...think...Guys..come back to reality..every day we try to be as careful as possible..we want to be cent percent sure that our decision has to be fruitful..be it buying vegetables or planning a trip..We Indians go to super markets and buy the toothpaste which gives tooth brush free and not the one we want..and you guys are going to leave that mentality aside in your kid's future..This is what passed through my mind..

And next is the scenario of my life..about a guy who didn't know what tomorrow means..yep..at school i never knew what studying for tests or exams meant..my parents used to ask me questions and i used to answer and write in exams..the trend was the same till 8th standard..how i wrote my exams is still a mystery to me and probably that is exactly why i couldn't crack my engg exams so well..in terms of my goals or what i wanted to do..i seriously was blessed for the fact that i didn't exactly know what the popular or in thing is cos i was not the one to discuss about future or movies with my cousins..i was more interested in knowing if they had the same chapters as i had in that class..see even there i was least bothered about my future..But in 5th standard i had one aim of having my own company or basically be my own Boss..i think that is the only idea or goal about future i had..i always stuck to it..not sure due to my fondness to it or my character of being committed to things..later sometime in school..grew attachment towards being a software engineer cos it looked nice to write that in slam books..so stuck to it..ha ha..what a planned future..i didn't about IIT's back in school..Didn't know much about MES or St.Jospeh's college even on the day of my 10 results..if not for my friends i would probably have never known much about these colleges.The only time i was passionate about something was in 2nd pu when i wanted to become chemical engineer..reason was it was different and i was good at chemistry..or fear of other subjects for which i don't have an answer..but as far as i am concerned i have become what i wanted to become but even after that i at times feel is this all..make no mistake..there is still lot more to do in what i am doing..i am happy but now i feel i need to create a new goal for myself..cos i need spice in my life..