My Friends

Weekend has been good and relaxing for the fact that i have not ventured anywhere out of my house..now coming to my friends..i have been thinking a lot about this since a couple of months..probably an year or so..the best i felt was write about my feelings for each of them..at the end of it they may like me more or hate me but really that is not the purpose of this post.Its just what i feel for them and to show my kids how my friends were.
Let me talk about each one individually..

Friend 1 -
Before : One of my very best friends till date..our friendship dates back to nearly 15 years and good thing is there were never really rough moments between us anytime..grew up together.We were like 2 bodies one soul..always there for me..knew me inside out..only person whom i knew could pep me up when down.. our conversations would stretch from movies to cricket to people to country to music to all that makes sense and nonsense too..never left me alone..Couldn't stay without meeting each other for more than a day or 2

Now: Times changed found the girl of his life..too busy with life and no time for anything other than career and life which obviously doesn't include me..it takes a special occasion for us to meet..We think now what to speak to each other..Talking has stopped a long way back..
All the best in life..

Friend 2 -
Before : Second of my very less set of best friends..grew up together can say till school..after school though we were and we are friends the magic didn't strike well enough cos we couldn't spend quality time with each other..used to be part of the group only when he had spare time..always had a reason to change our decisions of going to a movie or hotel and always had a 'no' as an answer for our plans..Good friend..


Now : Busy with life and partner..a bit selfish and opportunist but thats how some people are...Talks about bringing back the magic of our friendship little does he know that i had moved on long time back and his attitude is the one that stops me to work on getting friendship back to where it was if not better cos i donno if it would really last.

So this part of my post has been grossly misunderstood..what i have meant in the above paragraphs is just some things that have happened in our lives that doesn't mean there was nothing good about our friendship..we have had some of the best moments of our lives together..
Always there when he knows i am sad about anything..best part about him is his memory..has a very good memory and keeps reminding the good moments we had together and keeps relating things..I would definitely ask him suggestions on places for food and parking..He has a sweet gf who is more sensible and mature than this idiot :-)..she is very good friend of mine and deserves equal respect to everyone else in the post and you don't find a different section for her cos i have never seen them as separate..
He along with friend 1 have been my strength and inspiration..
People if you felt i have nothing positive to talk about him come speak to me and i can talk about it for months..
We are friends for life..

Sister 1 :
Before : A junior at school got introduced to me in a purely coincidental circumstances..never really knew we would go on to be so close but we did..Used to share everything and anything and always looked up to me for strength and focus..didn't really matter is i had exams next day she had to talk to me for a couple of hours..she being my first sister..loved her a lot..there couldn't be a day passed without our conversation..during these years she grew from strength to strength and went on to become a very successful person in life..

Now : Busy with her focus towards her family and career..i am the last on her list of friends but let me tell you she has very little friends..now we speak as we are acquaintance and nothing more..we need a valid reason to talk to each other..calls wouldn't last for more than 2 minutes..

Friend 3 :
Before : She was my sister's best friend and we became the closest of friends..first girl with whom i felt comfortable talking to..she admired me and we couldn't stop telling each other whats happening at that moment..mobile service providers made huge profit cos of us :-D
She had feelings which i couldn't reciprocate and she moved on..

Now : Back into my life after a couple of years but friendship didn't change and she is happily married now.

Friend4:
Before : Got together during our PU days but really got close from 4th semester and we grew together from then on and still growing together..total opposite personalities but still we compliment each other very well..no hint of tact or secrecy in him..always there for company be it goiing to return a rented cd or filling up petrol or buying clothes..never do we talk about each other but we always lend support to each other..value each others company a lot..we have got so used to each other that we can't stay away (touch wood)..Feels good to have a buddy who is simple non nonsense and no strings attached kind

Now :no change yet :-)

Sister 2 :
Before : Got to know her in 5th semester and somehow chords stroked immediately and we got close so close in no time..People wondered if we knew each others over years..Nice person..always had things to tell you..always bored to study..dream t a lot..filled the void of a sister in my life..loved her a lot..at times she was my kid sister and sometimes my elder one..:-)

Now : Times changed..fell in love forgot to tell me..got married and living happily..

Friend 5 :
Before : A sweet girl got introduced to me during a fest at college and we have been very close since then..nice girl..looks up to me for advice..respects me a lot..always there for me and expects the same from me..staying in hostel she feels my home is her local guardian and my parents love her as well..they find a daughter in her..

Now : No change yet :-)

Sister 3 :

Before : My friend's sister but a very very close sister to me as well..She likes me and respects me equal to her brothers and i love the fact as i always love having sisters..Simple girl..if there are no exams she will come out with us and i like teasing her..

Now : No change yet :-)

Wrote my feelings in this post..just like Abraham Lincoln told one of his subordinates to express his anger on paper i did the same about my feelings..

These people have had a huge influence in my life..There have been numerous other friends but these fall into the special bracket..
None the less one thing is friendship also comes with a validity..As my first post goes 'Change is eternal'

Myself as a friend : Bestest of friends..moody but still there..helps me focus and determined in life..Good thing about the things that has happened is that it has helped me to concentrate on my career and goals as the only thing i had in life other than my family was work..helped me a lot in growing..

And one small conclusion i had not written last time around is that everyone in this post are the best of my friends and am always there for them and they are always there for me..
We are all friends for life..

Cheers!!!Loved writing this post..

Great Weekend

Its been really a long time since i penned down my thoughts..there has been a lot of things that has happened over these months..

First my dream of starting my company bloomed..i believed in myself but yet felt it was close to impossible for a boy from middle class family to realize such a big dream but it happened..Probably that has kept me busy from blogging..

But am breathing a bit freely from last 2 weeks..previous weekend was a good one with 3 good movies..'Gafla' in hindi..'Shoot at sight' in english and 'Vinayakadu' in telugu..Needed a good break and got it but this weekend was better..

Weekend started with some spine chilling music by Nirvana..
First 3 official meetings scheduled for saturday got canceled and then had to go out with one friend in the morning and with another in the evening but both got canceled..so it was good rest day for me till i decided to go shopping with my dad..went to brigade and entered the Levis showroom but out of so much collection i didn't like even a single jeans there and then went to Lee where the collection wasn't too good..stepped into Pepe showroom..i always liked the pepe brand but never really bought it due to cost factor but this was the day of spending so went and really loved the collection and fit and bought 2 jeans and 2 short casual shirts..cost a whopping 6,400 but due to discount came down to 4000 and the surprise was at the bill counter when my dad paid the bill ;-) .. in the evening just bought some essential stuff for office and then picked up about 5 dvds out of which one was a pathetic movie called ' Kambhakth ishq' ..crap movie i tell you..Script writers and directors still feel showing a bit of skin and using some raunchy double meaning jokes makes a movie hit..pity those idiots..

Sunday was brothers sisters day..me my friend and our sister had booked tickets for 'new york' i bet this is a good movie in sometime now..Real good movie..its story based and very little entertainment quotient in the movie..what made the movie special was the realistic ending rather than the miraculous happy ending usually bollywood movies have..Like to watch movies with a story and a strong one..Then had lunch at mcdonlads and desserts at Gelato..Liked the ice cream but cone sucked big time..my hunger for shopping hadn't really ended the day before..so checked out some stuff at Levis and again the collection looked mediocore..found a couple of neat t shirts at Pantaloon..picked them up and headed back home..Evening went to meet a friend and spent some quality time..came back to watch the match between Roddick and fedrer..stepped out a few minutes to meet a couple of friends and to return the cd but couldn't move an inch for nearly 2 hours..what a match..Roddick just shocked fedrer until the second set tie break..then it was pure awe to watch the relentless exhibition of pure ecstasy and grand strokes i have ever witnessed so far in tennis..first time in my life did i choose tennis over cricket and i felt it was worth it..It was a great win for Fedrer but for me respect for Roddick just doubled..from the times in 2004 and 2005..this time around his game was so mature..what i love about Roddick is that he plays by instinct and power..love the rawness of his game..Fedrer tamed the rawness on previous occassions but here roddick's tennis had a new element called maturity..On a personal not it would have been an icing on the cake to witness Roddick win but its fine..There is always another day..


Nice weekend..Rejuvinated.. Replenished..Refreshed..Refuelled..

Friday the 13th

I have heard and read a lot of things about friday the 13th myth and stuff, there have been horror movies made based on this.

But this friday the 13th has been interesting for me, we friends had decided to go on a trip but it got cancelled or postponed as it stands due to unintended and unavoidable reasons,so we in unity had to take an unanimous decision to cancel the trip for now.

The day has been bundled with lot of energy, started with me having a shave at 2 in the morning and got a real quick and neat shave, felt nice..had good sleep..got up late as usual but got ready soon and was driving at a speed higher than my usual.

First half of the day at office i was filled with lot of enthu and fixed quite a good number of bugs and was texting many of my friends and was always with my music.I somehow had this intution of something good happening and positive spirited energy was running in my veins..It felt real good.Then we had a meeting about the effects of recession at office, though recession is something which people don't like i saw it as an opportunity, this is the time when people have to give their best but knowing me i have always given my 100% to anything i do but i saw this as a great opportunity to exercise my marketing and business skills of which i am praised of by my friends, some people have gone to the extent of sayin that i am born with an MBA.. though it sounded bit kiddish at times i feel i have that ability in me.I am going to do my best in this without letting it affect my development job. I am quite possitive about our company actually becoming  successful in this recession phase itself, i just am not able to pen(type) down my excitement.But rest assured Injoos is going to make it big within april and thats the bottom line.

I drove at real good speed while coming back from office as well..nice songs..especially 'feel' by Robbie Willaims and Karunesh's punjab gave added more energy..

And about tomorrow being valentine's day, it doesn't matter to me as it is another day for me but thanks to Muthalik i felt the need to celebrate V day but no time for it and it also seems like the coward has now decided to hide down the drain.

How i wish Muthalik's parents had his ideology and hadn't married we wouldn't have cheap fellows like him to throw thrash upon.I just don't understand how these narrown minded bloody politicians resort to such cheap tricks and how people follow them, donno whom to blame cheapos or people...If the one Mr.Muthalik is so damn concerned about Hindu culture let him first follow the principle of respecting fellow human.

And as far as my plans for V day are concerned not a big fan of it but wouldn't mind seeing it as an opportunity just to chill out and its a plan too early but surely i am gonna celebrate my next V day with  a girl..i am 23 and its time that my chick finds me soon..

And friday the 13th has been good and will be good for me.

Cheers..

Mixed Bag

Here i am and this is me and no where esle to write...la la la...

I have lot of things to write about right from being part of the biggest release i have seen so far to finally applying for a credit card and planning for trips and accomplishing my first financial goal and successfully completing 2 years in my professional career and feeling good about playing cricket and Obama becoming president as if i care..he he..and lots more..

Now i started new year with luck on my side,friends gathered and we kept playing uno and with luck on my side and using a bit of smartness was really playing good..Deprived of sleep and being hungry reached home at 6 to get bisi bisi dosas from mom...yummy and then slpet till 12 45 till i got a call from my friend who wanted me to be with her for the day..so got up got fresh and went to pizza hut and then to new megamart at Devegowda petrol bunk...i must admit it is better than brand factory and has real good collection..day passed by..i would call it a good begining..

The biggest thing that has happened so far in my professioanl career has been the last 2 months where i have had ample opportunity to learn and understand lot of things..i just can't explain how exciting journey it was but the result has been wonderful and really i feel elated to see Injoos.com now..let me just give u few snippets..i don't think ever in any company a founder sits next to you and suggests font colors,sizes and structure..we literally designed and developed a corporate site in not more than 3 days..then u have a senior who just estimates the effiency before u even complete ur question..then the CEO hust keeps giving lot of valuable information and feedback..He is certainly a welath of valuable knowledge..In brief i am enjoying my professional life..

Then i shaved my head at Tirupathi and happy with my new hairdo...he he..have no clue why i did it but it feels good..

On 11 jan i completed my 2 years in my career and feels good..Finally i applied for credit card..Got an HSBC bank savings account..

I have always wanted to visit certain places and never have been able to go there yet..the first one is Coorg..i have decided on this place for as many as 5 times and never been there..Hampi is one more place i want to visit but have never planned for it..Goa!!!!No comments..

Let me see i am hoping to see atleast one of these places this year..

Going to Wonderla for sure this year..come what may.. 

Too bored to blog..Ciao..Sorry for a bad blog post

Another year passed by...

A good saturday..getting up late cos i slept at five in the morning..getting up to a call from a friend telling Dravid is on 96 made me just forget sleep and rush to the tv and getting mesmerized by his strokes had breakfast and lazily lying on the bed watching 2 absorbing test matches..finally i washed my vehicle, had shave and got ready finally at 4..went to brand factory and did a bit of shopping..hogged and came back..watched half of Jaane tu.. movie with parents..love this time i spend with my parents..i wish i could stay and be more with my parents..ah now i just look back at the year 2008..not sure about an adjective the year..good,bad and ugly..seen it all..Given an option i wouldn't wish for this kind of an year..Now let me just hit some chip on my memory and jot down all major happenings month wise..

January...First month of the year..month to begin new things and make resoultions..nah..i don't believe in all this..every day is good to start something new or make some good resolution..was excited cos i would be completing my first year at work on january 11..oh ya Dravid's bday..little did i know that i wouldn't be completing my second year in the same company..nothing really exciting happened considering that my closest buddies are busy with their own life..anyway month just passed by with me enjoying work fixing some bugs and doing some chota mota enhancements..

February..month of love..again crap..there shouldn't be a month or day or time for love..it should be always there..ok stopping the non sense here..i donno why but i suddenly wanted to learn php just cos my manger told that i could be working on some php project..little did i know that php would land me in my present job..made my conscious efforts to study php but enthu lasted for 3 days :-) but i did make significant progress atleast i could code something in php..then one of our colleagues was getting married so i had to fill in for him and had to do QA on his behalf..it was fun..it was real fun finding bugs and fighting it out with the developers..celebrated couple of my friend's birthdays..some treats still pending..too bad this year has been..very few treats or outings..

March...this month alwyas reminds of 10th exams and India vs Australia,Kolkata tesr..anyway the php project did come and the cleint i was interacting was a genius in open source technologies..he did give me some gyaan about open source and all..seriously a gem of a guy..project went good with good amount of help from my good old friend..by this time i was feeling confident of being able to do any kind of work..couple of friends actually gave a treat but i don't even remember where and when..strange..

April..yay yay..birthday month..Its believed that people in this month are actually extra intelligent and make fool out of others..must be true!!!
bday was good but that is when i started hearing rumours about Epsilon India being shut down and all..but me being an eternal optimist or something i wasn't ready to hear all that..i guess it was me and one more guy who always kept some positive energy around among all freshers..A very important event took place..the girl whom i love(d) the most got married and damn i wasn't invited also..let it be..may she have a wonderful life..may be she will name her kid sanjay or sanjana..hopes!!!!

May..nothing great happened except character set enhancement and rumours on Epsilon being closed down..we had been to a nice camp called 'Doddamakli'..had a very relaxing holiday..wish to go on such holidays..all wishes won't come true..

June..i got into a project which involved html,css,photoshop(tool which i havent learnt completely yet)..it was too much stress man..used to work from morning 11 to 2 and sometimes 3..this is the time when my team lead taught me a lot of tricks and those have helped me a lot..the perfection he seeks..hmm..admirable..
One more friend celebrated his bday without a treat..Oh Ya two of my friends got engaged and to each other..

July..project continued and nothing else happened as there was no time.. news got confirmed that Epsilon India was certainly going to close down..ok..time to prepare resume and attended 3 interviews..first one was total crap at cricinfo..totally unprofessional..second one was screwing..after the interview i just felt like going back to school..third one interview only didn't take place cos the consultant had messed it up and they were not using technolgies i had know..but can be called a dream company for me..i just wished i would get a job there someday..the feeling went away when i joined Injoos :-)..my team lead got a job and couple of other guys closed in their offers..i was getting panicky until i found this nice consultant who is still a friend to me ..she scheduled 7 interviews in a week and i attended 3 and got into the first company..and cleared one more as well..was more than happy..so it was time to bid good bye to all my colleagues with whom i had fun for one and half years..

August..one by one colleagues were leaving and that was my last month at the company too..so all we used to do was go to office at 12.. have lunch at 1..tea at 3..roam around comm street at 4 and head back home at 8..was good fun until last week i was stuck up at some project..in fact last 2 days were screwing..underwent a minor surgery mid of the month..

September..i joined Injoos with my friend who has been with me since my first pu..its strange but true we have landed up in the same pu college..engg college..first comapany and second comapany also same..sometimes its nice to have someone whom u know from a long time around..atleast someone has been stuck with me for this long donno if it is by choice or by chance:-)..but he is good company speaks non stop,full of energy and excitement..most ppl say its difficult to stay with him but i have always felt comfortable and ahppy being with him cos he is simple,straight forward..oh oh ok no testimonials here...orkut is the place for that..new workplace but its just too good..love everything from office palce to food and cool drinks there..more importantly people over there..everyone are passionate about work and that is what makes a good and successful workplace..i woud anyday argue that hardwork with passion always bears sweet fruits atleast after my engineering i strongly believe in this..so got too engrossed in work and i love it..i released my first code as well just wondered if i had joined some big company how long it would have taken for me to submit my first code..

October..month of marriages..my friends got married and to each other :-)..my brothers got married but not to each other..so thre marriages all in all..i lost my grandpa..this was the first death i saw and it has had a very huge imapct on my life..i loved my grandpa a lot..he was an introvert but he always had storeis about his life to tell me..i don't think anyone else knows so much about him as i know..i probably am the only grand child of him who has been fortunate to get chocolates and stuff from him..past three years the things he used to do was sleep or fight with me but most of the times for fun..at the age of 88 his sharpness of words was unmatched for..i was fortnate to have grown up with my parents and grandparents so i have been brought up with lot of pampering and the best of 2 generations..i am what i am cos of them..all i can say is he is no more with us and wish that he would be happy whereever he is..great loss..

novemeber..all my grandpa's ceremonies were taking place..i would say that more than losing a person doing and following all rituals and procedures hurt more..
Release kept happening at work..one of my friends got engaged..

Decemeber..Injoos getting ready for beta release..am excited and happy..had an opportunity to design our corporate website and it was like a dream come true as i always wanted to develop a site all on my own..i loved it and felt real happy when i got good ratings from my ex team lead and a good friend..the comments from my friend was overwhelming.. he certainly deserves a mango juice for it..going to Tirupati..the next best place to home in this world for me..Coming back and expecting a better year..

Would call this year a losing year for me..
Lost my first job(i was not kicked out i resigned before company shut down)
Lost my grandpa..
Dravid had a bad year..has probably lost his position in ODI forever..
Kumble retired..so lost some spice in cricket..
Lost lots of fun cos friends are busy..supporting this with statistics on an average we used to have about 6 treats but this reduced to one this year..
we are 3 friends who have been meeting each other on an average of 7 times a month to once in 2 months..smses or calls have reduced to single digits this year..not sure what else to say..

Have a happy new year..

Show terror to terrorists

I don't watch tv much but from past 4 days i have been glued to tv to know what has been happening in Mumbai,i still can't believe that anyone can enter my country with loads of guns and grenades and attack my countrymen,is the security so bad!!!But its happened and let us make sure it doesn't happen.

On wednesday night around 11 in the night terrorists just drove in the roads of Mumbai firing their guns at people and then they enter Taj ,Oberoi,Narimaan house and hold captives and kill many people inside.Some policemen tried their best to fight the terrorists but ashamed to say that terrorists were well equipped than our policemen and due to such incapable equpments many of the able policemen had to sacrifice their own lives.In India NSG(National Security Guards) are all at one city,i still wonder the reasoning behind that,is it to save accomodation and training costs?if so it is at the cost of many innocent Indian lives.In India everything right from declaring birth of a baby to cremate a body needs permission or authorisation from the government and so orders were needed from some politician for the NSG to be drafted to work at Mumbai..Man!!!Give me a break why the hell should NSG wait for orders for some politician who wouldn't even know what NSG is meant for.Yes its midnight and the minister is sleeping and it takes time for the order to be issued and finally when such an order is made there is delay in getting transport for these guys.Fine all said and done they reach there and the hotels don't even have the construction plan,yes that is quite obvious in India,construction plan is needed only to get approval to construct a building and all the official does is take money based on the amount of violation on the plan and construction is done,so there is no concrete construction plan.So now with no clue as to what is in store for them inside and they can't even strategically plan their attack nor can they speculate the movements of terrorists and they enter to save people.The operations are being carried out.

Just spare a thought for the people who are inside stuck and for the families of those who are stuck in there,they would feel so helpless and people inside aren't sure whether they would come out alive or not.Then come the politicians..why on earth do they want to come to the scene of terror as Harsha Bhogle rightly asked "How many terrorists would a politicain kill if he comes there?Is he of any help or just a nuisance out there?"I think the second option suits the action.I hear so many people talking about movements and strikes and stuff but is anything being done about it.People forget about it after a week,in India i see more people in the category of "Baaton ka raja kaamon ka koja".Come on people and media just stop talking,do if u can or just stop talking.All should understand that its the people in power who can do something and not the normal man so make sure you put the right ppl there but if you feel there is no worthy person to be there take an intiative or identify an able person and try to get him into power.
its very easy to talk and point fingers but its difficult to put it into action.

From all this my personal experience is i am hurt and very sad,i can't stop crying looking at the scenes on tv and my blood boils but i am helpless,i can't do a thing and that hurts.All i can do is hope that people who are suppossed to do something about this will work and do something.
As a normal man i would prefer not be afraid of terrorism and be scared to go out or something,the motive of terrorists is to scare the normal man so don't let their motive succeed.NDTV made a big epsiode saying BigB has written a blog where he has written that he had kept a gun below his pillow and felt insecure,i don't feel anything right about it.
I hate the name gievn to them,we should never be terrified by their actions but we should make sure they get terrified for what they have done.

A word for terrorists:I heard a conversation of an involved terrorist with one of the journalists and i donno if its genuine or not,in it the terrorist was saying that muslims are being ill treated in India but i don't know how much educated these people are,i would just like to mention that India has progressed not only because of Hindus but cos of Indians and our ex President Abdul Kalam is a muslim,we have nearly 5 muslims in Indian cricket team,our highest paid and popular actor is a muslim SRK and we have top entraupauners who are muslims Azim Premiji.So i donno who have mind fucked these kids who are just 18 -22 years.And these people talk about being brave,yes i agree they don't care about their lives and attack but if they were really brave they wouldn't have attacked innocent people,they would have declared a war and fought.
Hey cowards my middle finger to you.

Conclusion:I salute to people who have sacrificed their lives to save the people and my heart feels for people who lost their near and dear ones.
I don't want any martyrs for my conutry,i want my country to be safe.

Journey called Life.

I know that the title sounds too heavy but all i want to write about now is some aspects of my life which has constantly changed.

By reading most of my posts you would have by now realized that am a narcissist and should tell you that a proud one as well.

Let me just trace back my life right from my school days and try to figure out the confidence quotient of mine.

Till my class 8th i have no clue how i was studying,all i knew was my dad used to ask me questions..every question and every subject and i used to answer,never did i study or read on my own,i still wonder how i could answer..was i so attentive in class??I have no clue but this is how i was till 8th so i didn't even know what confidence actually was back then.

In my 9th standard is when i started to study on my own and believe me it was one of the worst nightmares of my life.During the study holidays i used to study from 6 in the morning to 12 in the night without any break or anything and that is easily the hardest i have worked and that resulted in my worst performance ever,i landed in higher 60's somewhere in 68% i guess but before that consistently i was in higher 80's,pretty close to 90..So my confidence was dented very badly and the same year i was about to give my 10th exams!!!What did i do???did i work harder!!No all i did was relax and took studies more lightly and i did do well.got my confidence and good marks as well i scored 91.52%,one of the highest of my performances till then .

I joined college and whole of 1 puc all i did was come back from college just have a glance of what was done on the day and studies became simple and easy.
Second puc i joined tuitions(one of the best in Bangalore) and the way coaching was being done and the intensity of the routine broke my confidence and i doubted myself about doing well in exams but this didn't last long,i had college from 10 - 3:30 and tuitions from 5:30 to 9:15 so i had no time to study but that is when i became nocturnal and used to study till 2 in the night.I did get good marks and did well in cet as well though i couldn't get within 1000 which haunts me forever.

Next when i came to engg,i was confident and at the same time hard and smart working but my results never show that,i have been an average student according to marks in BE but i always felt i was much better than that but never did the marks dampen my confidence but in fact it pushed me to work harder.

I joined work and attended training for about 15 days,i swear i understood nothing other than 3 data types in perl and theory of oracle and everything else was much beyond me but i learnt html and css to good extent but little did i knew then that i would be working in the Ui team,i am very grateful for getting opportunity in that field.For about 4 months did some internal projects and through that i learnt a bit and then our academic project had to be completed in 10 days and worked real hard and then is when i got good knowledge about db,emb perl and javascript,i felt i wasn't so bad in my technical skills. Once college got over and got into full time work,i was fed up and lost confidence since i didn't have any worthwhile work for nearly 5 months,i got restless and had lost confidence cos didn't farewell in evaluation test so thought of qutting but that is when my team lead explained about the industry and told that we can't expect work always in an IT industry,i stuck there and for the next 5 months from then got good amount of work,but next six months is when i shaped my career to where i am now,i had to work on a php project,so learnt basics of php and did that and then some good enhancements were handed over to me and then building couple of decent websites,i had to toil and work real hard to get the concepts and implement them as well.It helped to grow better.So confidence was back

Then i joined my current company,i loved the atmosphere and the kind of work i would be into but at the same time had the pressure to perform cos the 3 other developers were just too brilliant and i always consider myself an average guy and i think that is what pushes me to work hard and do good.I have been part of about 3 releases now and i should say i am pretty happy and confident about myself,i never knew that i could be so good technically and i am loving the job,i like the atmosphere here and the freedom,the releases are very aggressive but i still don't see any time constraint for myself,in fact i am loving my work so much that i have always been in front of my laptop working if not in front of my lappy my mind is thinking about solving an issue or something,

Got no clue again as to why i wrote this post..