Sunday, August 17, 2008

Absolutely Confused!!!!!!!!!

What am i going through??Whats running on my mind??What am i feeling???Am i undergoing hormonal and enzyme changes..is it me going out of adolescence..or is it growing up..or becoming responsible..or taking up responsibility..or getting ready for personal commitment..or am i desperate..or is it just boredom..or am i finding new ways to spend money and while away time..or is it something more serious!!!as the title goes am totally absolutely soulfully and truthfully confused...

yes i confess that atleast once in a day i think about having a serious girlfriend(this with due respects to all my existing and historic girlfriends..he he) but whats that i need to do to have one...Crap!!whatever it is i am too lazy..let the right girl make her own way into my life..no no..i don't want to take chances.."This is my life and i am damn serious about it"..straight from RHTDM..absolutely baseless in this context...but sounded nice so added it..ok yeah that happens daily so what should i do..as far as i am concerned nothing..but i hope this isn't wrong..cos i have doubts whether its the right way to deal with it..lets come back to this later..first lets see the history behind this...

I have 2 very very close friends and baddi maklu..one is getting married and one has a gf since 3 years..has this company corrupted the innocent mind of me..may be..bad boys..ya getting a bit serious..yes i also think so that its nice to have female company especially when u msg ur friends for freaking out and they think twice..am not complaining..just writing my feelings out..

advantages:u get sweet smses always..frequent calls..ANYTIME company..kills boredom..ample care and concern..an able guide at times...constant encouragement and a permanent sure shot fan..confidence booster..

disadvantages:u get sweet smses always..frequent calls..always company..u get bored after a while..monotony..too much care and concern..too much bossy..too much interfernce..no space..CAN'T flirt..over expectation and the list just goes on..

it just depends on the way u look at things..

I am aimlessly going on typing here..why am i writing this post...huff..this is worse than "God tussi great ho" movie i guess...

ok...i think i got this thought cos of some parental pressure to get married and high quality boredom over some weekends..

On the more serious front..i think there is atleast an year to go before i get ready for the phase of my life..

On whether i would find a girl myself or not..mostly not..i would give my parents the deserved preivilage and i would approve if i like her..(i seriously donno till when this would be valid) i have loved one girl and she is happily married so i don't have any other choice i guess..

One thing is very sure..i am not looking for a girlfriend..if i find one i wouldn't ignore..

I have done all the things upto now at the right time and i would get this done at the perfect moment..

PS:Without having a "gf"..i experience the advantages and disadvantages i have mentioned thanks to my sweet friend...

after reading this post people may have hundred judgements about but who the hell cares..i write what i feel..i care to opinion or judgement of none..
Writing this post was really funny happy and felt real good..

15 comments:

Santosh Anand said...

Lo SS,

Take a chill pill maga ... i think u are just our of adolescence and u have been given too many responsibilities including finding a life partner for urself .. when u are still in the process of finding a "Project partner" in office :)

Anyway .. coming to the actual comments, i was actually heartly when i was reading ur post.

Kudos man .. Dont worry too much .. sooner or later, things will fall in place ... and everything will be clear!!! I hope so :P

enigma said...

@sa

Dude..things are very much in their right place man..he he..

Darkness and deep said...

lalalalalalalala

theultimate1 said...

what 'phase of life' are you talking about? about getting married? in a year????????

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...

take it slow... give it sometime, I'd say...

with all due respect to your sister and the only true love of my life, I'd suggest you to stay single for some more time...

these are your days to play around... responsibilities will only soar in the coming years... so, don't hunt for them... lol...

To give a count of my experience, I'm loving the 'committed' status... I think I didn't make any mistake of getting my marriage fixed with her, which is due in 3 years from now...

however, I'd really wish (oh and yes, she knows this one as well :P) I had a few more months before tying the knot after my studies (darn I'm waiting to complete these studies)...

so, if I could suggest, I'd say that you don't need to miss a gf as such... if it has to happen, it'll happen to you, just like our two friends...

enigma said...

@ultimate1

Man..this post wasn't about me missing a gf or something..just my thoughts..and yes i feel an year is long enough to take up responsibilty..nothing is gonna change in the way i live life even if i get committed..

theultimate1 said...

nothing is gonna change in the way i live life even if i get committed..

or so you think... lol...

just like you mentioned in your disadvantages list... you're gonna miss a bit of YOUR space... not space really, but introspection time will almost be gone...

enigma said...

@ultimate1

Nope..i don't think so..i can put a bet on it :-)

theultimate1 said...

ok then... give it a try... and if you can keep everyone happy with it, good for you...

with best wishes... my last reply to this blogpost...

enigma said...

i am sure i will....

rkumar said...

Solution : Stop thinking ! give it break , thale inda hula thegedu haaku .

Chill

Srinivas R said...

Always don't see with people who have and feel bad that i don't have see others who don't have and be happy :).

Darkness and deep said...

whata sadistic fellow man sriku is... and sanjay, been there written thus :P

Srinivas R said...

look who says that tho me and you are in same ship :) by others i mean you me and people like us

Unknown said...

Don't hunt for love, let it happen.

What i feel is, if u r searching some one just to spend ur weekend times, then its better to spend it with some guys( no double meaning), If 1/1000 th of the time wasted on a girl is spent on a guy you will find a friend for a lifetime. So don't be desperate.

enigma said...

he he
i am not being desperate or trying to find a girl man
just wrote the blog